I can pretend to be confident
Put on a show
Act silly and sexy
That’s something I know
But the second you walk in the room
Everything changes
The part of my brain that knows things
Completely rearranges
Its like you sweat confidence
Self assurance from your pores
Striking me in a way I can’t explain
Bringing a heaviness to my core
You make the simplest things my fears
Eye contact is no longer a question
When I’m not with you I want to be
Daydreaming about our progression
Everything about you is perfect to me
Except the games you like to play
The hand holding, head on my shoulder
Don’t you know when you leave that I want you to stay?
You joke about how I’m in love with you
I giggle, get defensive
But do you really know I do?
Because if so thats just offensive
You tell me about beautiful girls
Ones you’d love to date
You say I’m pretty also
But I must not be that great
Why must feelings like this exist?
Having you in my life is better than not
With all the tears and false hope
If this is love, its not what I thought
Can you truly love someone who doesn’t love you?
Or is the reciprocation what makes it real
If thats the case I’m really screwed
Because I’m scared for how strongly I’ll feel
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