free this heart of mine

I’m sweet, I’m gorgeous, I’m funny I’m just… one of a kind Words that flow out of your mouth Everyday, all of the time But if I’m all you say I am Why can’t you love me too? You want me in your life forever But I’m unsure I can do that for you I’m […]

is this love? don’t they say you’re supposed to just know?

I can pretend to be confident Put on a show Act silly and sexy That’s something I know But the second you walk in the room Everything changes The part of my brain that knows things Completely rearranges Its like you sweat confidence Self assurance from your pores Striking me in a way I can’t […]

what happens to our feelings when they’re gone?

do they just become… nothing? do their edges just fade slowly like memories still there but not in their entirety do they completely disappear? is that why it seems impossible to bring feelings back by choice? or are they always there somewhere just hiding below the surface until they maybe, just maybe, get brought back […]

sex, love, depression–recent iPhone notes – 10/11/19

Why do I put you on a pedestal when you absolutely don’t deserve it? Even friendships have honeymoon periods Nothing stays shiny forever, over time everything dulls I’ll get over this and I’ll be okay. I need to choose someone who chooses me too. I can’t chase after the idea of someone anymore. I love […]

unlucky i’m in love with my best friend

Spending time with you is bad for my health Might have to step away for myself The song that says you’re lucky to love a best friend Clearly hasn’t felt the pain im in I get scared to make eye contact with you Because when I do I almost kiss you And I think of […]