do they just become… nothing? do their edges just fade slowly like memories still there but not in their entirety do they completely disappear? is that why it seems impossible to bring feelings back by choice? or are they always there somewhere just hiding below the surface until they maybe, just maybe, get brought back […]
Read More what happens to our feelings when they’re gone?This time of year always terrifies me. Don’t get me wrong, I love fall. My birthday is this month. I love the colors. The perfect temperature. College football tailgates and pumpkin patches and apple cider. The sweaters and beanies and boots. But the wave of sadness and hopelessness hits between the 21st-31st. I’m a senior […]
Read More dear seasonal depression… please take a year offWhy do I put you on a pedestal when you absolutely don’t deserve it? Even friendships have honeymoon periods Nothing stays shiny forever, over time everything dulls I’ll get over this and I’ll be okay. I need to choose someone who chooses me too. I can’t chase after the idea of someone anymore. I love […]
Read More sex, love, depression–recent iPhone notes – 10/11/19
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